cheers

IMG_4322, originally uploaded by mastersquinto.

don't feel like sleeping. i guess something is keeping me up. my heart feels unsettled for some reason. maybe it's a worry or maybe it's... yeah i'm not sure. =/ i do know that sometimes i sense a longing to talk to someone. the ones i used to talk to on a day-to-day basis (or somewhat day-to-day) seem faraway. and i'm not sure if i know those near me know well enough to talk to them. actually it's more like i'm wondering if they would even care to listen. talk about freshmen year repeat. sad! or maybe it's just that i've been with people since wednesday, so to finally have a day to myself and it feels strange.

the car rides home have been interesting. at one point in time i often wondered how i would ever last the 20-30 minutes. would it be in silence? perhaps God is breaking down the walls, breaking down the barriers that used to keep us apart. conversations flow out a lot more natually. or someone just liked talking. but i did catch myself actually sharing about me and it felt like a big relief.

oh dang. maybe that's it. i just dont ever share with people. tonight i had to actually push myself to say it. that's probably the difference. okay that's enough analyzing of myself =P

this summer God called me out and told me I didnt love people enough. at least not the way He loves them. His love is deep while I love people shallowly. i barely scratched the surface of their lives. Now He's calling me to love as He loves. to deeply care for those around me and especially when i'm in DC. God how am i doing? yeah, i know i make a lost of mistakes. =/

anyway SO THIS PICTURE. i really like it for whatever reason.
makes me think of friendship or something of the sort. so maybe i miss it.

bittersweet

IMG_4397, originally uploaded by mastersquinto.

friends will always come and go... and then some of them come back again for reunions.

the other day my parents were asking me about old close friends. they wanted to know if i still kept in touch with them. if they were still close to me. unfortunately, i dont keep in touch with a lot of them, but we do meet up every once in awhile. which is... good i guess?

anyway, i've been cleaning my room this week and stumbled upon a lot of old memories & pictures. bittersweet is the only way to describe the feeling i get when i'm looking at this stuff. it's bitter because i miss i those days, but it's sweet cause they bring a smile to my face!

SO this past monday the chan family came down for a dinner and... it was good =) i think it's mind-blowing to think about how far we've come and how far we've yet to go! i've just graduated from NYU and will be heading down to DC in August. vanni will be taking a class in HK and then heading off to USC for her freshmen year. Caleb is spending a few months working with a doctor in China and then will eventually be off to medschool. Faith is finishing up her time at seminary after 2 years as a staffworker out in cali. Ruth is out in good ol' cornell. (btw, if you insert a w into cornell.. you get cornwell. har har)

we all came from pool parties, sleepovers, and ridiculous inside jokes.


bittersweet indeed. but i wish them all the best of luck in whatever they do. i can't wait for another few years to pass so i can hear about what they're up to then.. about how God is working in their life.

OH - that's another point. it's so cool to know someone for so long because you can see how God works in their life over the timespan. you know what i'm saying?

so i guess it's really GOD who is mind-blowing. the way he works in all our lives.


yeeessss the end.

[picture taken by jeff kim :: www.flickr.com/photos/jeffkim]

senior year is almost over.
i am currently avoiding my linguistics textbook.
one more final between me & graduation!!!

this was from our "photoshoot" haha - it was actually a lot of fun.
the pictures are cute!!

i think.. as excited as i am to get out of here..
i KNOW i'm going to miss everything about NYU.
the hanging out. the friends. aacf.
classes. schedules. dorming. sts alp. meetings.

:(

i miss...

AGAPE WEEK started yesterday!! ee :)

unconditonal love.

the old school reunion

the old school reunion, originally uploaded by mastersquinto.

so this post a picture a day thing is hard. haha. i realized for it work.. I HAVE TO POST EVERYDAY... and i also realized i'm just posting pictures that have been up already and that i would have uploaded anyway.. i need to actually take a picture a day and post THAT picture..... that's what i was thinking -_-;;

anyway. for today.. here is one that i like for some reason.
nostalgia and and just how the pictures looks like. yes. theodore's red shorts stick out like crazy haha.

it's a love/hate relationship

IMG_3015, originally uploaded by mastersquinto.

sooo took the picture on my walk from the car to PJ's pancake house w/ mel & josh. haha i took a bunch!! they were the first flowers i've seen growing this year!! it was exciting. and flowers are.. i dont know... exquisite!! their colors are always vibrant. and i'm sure they smell pretty good too (except i can't smell anything so i wouldn't know). and they all look so different.. mm like orchids!! i like those. yes. flowers are awesome.

BUT -- as much as i love flowers & the warmth of spring, i also quite despise it!!! because of allergies :( it makes me super sad. my nose is already quite stuffy & runny as it is, now add on that allergy junk and it's just ten times worse.

and obviously, this is a super random blog, but i just wanted to say i am excited haha.

meanwhile, i'm sitting in my linguistics recitation.. NOT paying attention. i got a B on my midterm. i suppose that's pretty good, yeah? hm, well not bad considering i thought i was gonna get a C.. =P that's what you get for not paying attention in class!! hahaha. oh well. a pleasant surprise. maybe i can still get that A in this class :]

hm, but i'm still totally freaking out about all that bruce kuhn stuff!!! i still dont have a place for him to stay... hm i should go look into that again -_-;

gah. Lord, give me strength..




it's a love/hate relationship.